you are criticizing others. but sometimes you are so true.

Assalamualaikum wbt :)

happy thursday evening peeps!,
well hey i'm still duduk lenggang goyang kaki without any studying.hoihoi.malasnye kannnn!

anyway i just finished a long chit chat with my sweet mama. and titiba jadik terexcited wanna write everythangg here. haa harusla kan.sebab mama is my best counselor so harusla juga utk share kat semua. haruslahhh haruslahhh! hoyeahh~.

oke. let us start it.

Bismillahirahmanirahim..

anyway, have you been critized by others either in front of you or back and ouh left right up down. pernah?. and howwa you feel. sobs. down gile kan. opkosla because being critized was something tht never in our wishlist life kan. bcs we thought that we'd do everything fine. itu ape yg kite rase.not others. so sedar2 la shaaa! upss~

if ppls told me that i'm so mengada2, you said it seriusly and with your disgusted cute face it just fine. because i knew it well. sy memang sngt mengada. terbawak2 kehidupan manja di rumah. sobs. really it just fine. and sy sedar diri.

anyway. when you said something like pffffffff#%^&*#####. and ouh buat orang tersentap. memang harusla down gile. and i'm not fine with it. and i barely can't stand with it.but good job dude. you have your own good life happily married and yet maybe you have your kidSS.. why don't just leave me happily with my own life. sobs.

but alhamdulillah. after a long talk with mama. i feel released. yet i realize that maybe there's valid point that he wanna convey within his view. and BIGGIE THANKS to you for pointing this out.

i maybe IGNORANCE and not represents a good muslim. sobs. but please do commented it nicely as Islam had tought us to reprimand in a good ways, with the most polite ways. ni tidakkk.terus nak boom here and there because i never make u trouble since the day we have nothing. apekah?

i'm a woman. sadness, tears sensitiveness are parts of me.so please do speak nicely to me because i thought i never speak harshly to others. because i knew how it feel.

anything harsh and tragis is just like angin lalu because by take it seriusly and personally might hurt our heart.just leave it. but peeps, the gist were there.

i'm a muslim but i'm not represents a good muslim. yeah. =='
to change drastically is not a human's nature behaviour. it'll not keep on continuously and constantly.

mama told me first thing to be better is by changing our intention. niat utk berubah kerana apa. kerana cinta.kerana kawan.kerana keluarga atau kerana ALLAH. and yes, my tears nearly drop down when mama told me that :

" mama tidak pernah memaksa secara keras dan melarang anak-anak mama utk berfesyen, mama tidak memaksa anak-anak mama utk bertudung labuh utk berjubah cukup kalau ianya sopan dan follow as woman's fitrah. mybe is too late sebab mama tak larang dari kecik mcm sesetengah parents yg melarang ank2 dyrang from wearing jeans and tshirt since they are small. so it'll make anak-anak mama mamberontak bila keterbiasaan harus diubah. but insyAllah, mama tak pernah lupa utk berdoa kt Allah everyday, mama sebut nama anak mama sorang-sorang supaya suatu hari nanti inilah anak-anak solehah yang akan mendoakan mama dan abah, yang akan menjadi isteri yang taat pada suami, yang akan menjadi ibu-ibu yang solehah, anak-anak yang solehah pada mertua ".

thanks mama. i do love you so so much.

but i keep on questioning myself, am i so bad. and urghhh maybe. if noo, takkan ad yg berani ckp begitu rite even he is not seeing me right in front of him. ouhh BIG CLAPS for him :)

and yes. niat tu ada. sangatsangat ada. because i wanna be a good daughter for my abah and mama. i wanna give abah pahala and i wanna give my future-husband a lotsa pahala.so insyAllah. i'll be much much better. insyAllah. because i love them so so much.

o Allah.
show me the ways. :)

first thing first mama told me. ;

jaga solat and never miss to recite Quran.

insyaAllah ma..

#habuk pada mata.#

anyway, please allow me to share with all of you this beautiful recitation. mama told me to hear for this and InsyAllah it will help us be more peace with everyone. anythings.any challenges and circumstances. :)

ehh. mcam dah lemah lembut dan sopan santun je kan this entry. huahua. *buas tetap buas*. upsss~

:P

anyway. thanks for reading. and please ignore my lil bit unstable emotions.

and if you read this. THANK YOU SO MUCH :) may you live happily with your family.and ouhh. i'v just read that long long agooo email. and never thought you still wanna send an email to me. and no reply. sorry. because i'd replied it here.

sekian.

assalamualaikum :)


peaceeee ^__________^