anak abah dan mama rindu sangat kat mama dan abah :/

assalamualaikum. here i am tonite?.. eh nope. bukan tonite. but suda morning.perut berkeroncong lagu yang menarik. angin da masuk perut. huhu tapi takut nak begerak kerana keseorangan di rumah. :/. sadis. rasa nak nangis sekarang. huhu

i tried to sleep. but i can't. mungkin kerana perut saket kot. so rasa rindu kt rumah semakin membuak buak. kalau mama atau abah tahu anakny sedang lapar. mest abah ajak pegi makan kat luar.huhu :/

i'm laying on bed, rolling and turning around. back and forth. back and forth on my bed. so i decided to switch on my lappy and there's so many things puzzling in my head and i just need to type it out.

i miss my dad as my dear reminds me of him. ouh. abah busy sangat kan skrg and da jarang c0l. but mama replaced him. mama yang akan col eventhough abah's name appear at my phone but when i pick it up, there's ma's voice..huhuhu. sadly. saya sangat sangat rindukan abah. patut rasa mcm tak kena je sekarag ni. rasa tak semangat. i dunn0 what to do0, i'm bored and again. my tears drop. huhu. i hate this feelings =_____=.

when i was little, i were totally enjoyed with abah. abah sangat tidak garang. and sangat sangat c0ol. till now i guess. i miss to kiss his cheek. and i miss to b in his arm. abah selalu kepit kepala saya bawah ketiak abah. and sy akan menjerit jerit ckp abah busuk. huu. i miss that moment =____='

secretly some times at night, i used to pretend to fall asleep in front of TV because abah will carry me up to my bed.aha.and i remember those times abah come to my r0om and babbling at me why i dislike to use "ubat nyamuk". and i will reply him " sha nak charge hpn la abah. tak payah pasang ubat nyamuk". but abah will ignore me and he will plug in suis ubat nyamuk itu sendiri. no wonder da 3kali i'v denggi fever. anak yang degil rupanya. hihi.

and mama. sha sangat sangat rindukan mama jugak. huu. even my mama was a bit strict then abah, but i love her so much. even kadang2 sy suka merajuk dgn mama, tp sy sendiri yang akan pujuk mama balik. huhu because i can't stand alone without mama. :/ and i remember, one day i was sulking with mama and i drove car with tears heavily drops, and i refused to pick up mama's calls but after two days, i can't stand it anymore. huhuhu. i answered mama's call and mama's voice seems like she was so sad missing me here. and she was so excited t0oo to hear my voice. huuu. mama. sha minta ampun ye :/

dear mama and abah. i just want you to know i love both of you so much no matter what.

sadly me
=__________=

dalam saat saat begini

hujan
sunyi
sepi

hati dan perasaan menjadi raja pada diri

terkadang tangisan dalam hati itu pasti

kerana hati juga sering memberitahu diri

bahawa

dia sedang merindui

berperang dengan perasaan sendiri

kau
harus bersabar
wahai hati

deman rumah kala ini

memang menyakitkan

walau tidak nampak pada sakitnya fizikal
tapi benar rindu itu sakit
sakit yang tidak dapat dilihat

mahu tahu rasanya kesakitan itu?

seperti tangan tertusuk tajamnya pisau
melihat darah yang memercik deras

seperti

derasnya tangisan rindu itu
dan

sakitnya seperti pedihnya rasa menanggung rindu

kesedihan merindui
ditemani
serabutnya fikiran
menjadikan hati kecil ini semakin rapuh


:: rumah manis rumah ::

tons of nags!

i'm back to jitra now, IPDA .
everything's going on smoothly and fine.

except for me! ;/
i'v been sick for almost a week.
a week maybe and maybe more.

i'v never sick whenever i'm away from mama.
but now.it was really hard for me to take care of myself.haish.itula kau sha.dulu sakit mama aje layan.huuuu..nak mama! :/
i'v a non stop running nose, terrible cough, and now been experiencing a tight chest that leave me gasping for air. Worst, i puke like almost everyday now and if i get lucky, then i only puke once a day. -____-

but today, after tons of nags! from my love one and everybody around me.
i already went to pharmacy and now
i'v to take that medicine to fully recover! -___-
again drugs consumption begins.haishh!.
i'm not tht kind lar.say no to medicine.tapi nak sembuh juga.huhu
kesianla pada diri ini.

oke.i'll take care of u ya mrs. fasha! said the medicine :D

ahaa..
semoga encik flu dan encik batuk nyahhh segera dari mrs fasha ! (^__^)