reflection.

Assalamualaikum dear ones. :)

good late nite! hehe. penangan coffee buat mate saya tidak mengantuk tetapi malas utk stdy. huahua. =='

dear peeps,
have you asked you heart,mind and soul why and why and why when we try to be better with 'somebody' that actually we are not comfort with, we try so hard to be oke with, but it seems nothing.

pernah tak rasa mcm itu? =='

i know that it's not a good feeling,and it should be vanish from our heart. but as my mama told me, "soal hati tidak boleh dipaksa", bukan soal hati soal cinta je ye, tp orang-orang sekeliling pun harus diterima oleh hati kita without any bad feelings. yeah. soal hati memang tidak boleh dipaksa-paksa.

sometimes, we need time to reflect ourselves. take a deep look about our owns. because most of the times, ppls keep on searching others fault and weakness. kadang-kadang kita kata org gemuk, but at the same time, actually you are insult your own-self. sedar atau tidak. we need lotsa time to reflect back diri kita sendiri.

and i'm currently faced with it, and i just don't know why,. anyway by saying that, i know that HE is testing and challenging my heart right now with these tiny obstacles. but ya Allah, i really can't bear with it. i'v try so hard but maybe it was just a phrase from my mouth, "i'v try so hard" but it was not came deeply from my heart. Allah knows better.

i just don't know why i need to face with this type of ppls, but it's so called as life. kan. lumrahnya begitulah. there 'll not be as i wish.

but there's one thing i just wanna know from this type of ppls. you keep on searching others fault or weakness, but have you ever noticed that you are not so good enough to talk about others. you keep on troubling others but u think it's oke. and you don't ever realized that you had made me trouble. oh Allah, please forgive me for not being honest and sincere towards others but i jus can't stand it anymore.

however, one thing that really made me better was by talking to mama. it was not a mengadu ngadu session, it just a pampered-time for me to be with mama. and mama told me, that people who feels lack of love, lack of confident and lack of everything will show to others that "she is the best" :)

: less talk, more reflect :
: less finding others weakness, more updating our own weakness :
: less show but more share :


please no offense :)
and it also a reminder for me. cause i wasn't good enough to correct you directly. ^__^


p/s:
i was not a good girl, i'm not a good actor.if i said yes, i will grant a huge smile ever :)
but
if i said no, and i feel forced to do it and i think what r u talking about is ridiculous and budget nak hottt, budget nak show off . naah. this is my expression =___________=.
sorry yep. no offense.

sy belajar berterus terang dr dia. and i feel go0d :)

till then. assalamualaikum :)