suke^suki sha

assalamualaikum. hai hai everyone. bunch of works but still miss my dear bloggy. haha. sebenarnya nak update blog sebab hari ini ada gambar baru. :p. oke. saya biasala. memang suke nk snap snap picture. ajar org buat muke pelik kala bergambar. ecewah ;p



oke. kanak kanak ini comel rite. comel amat mcam dear nurin aisyah saya. ouh. swear you. i miss her damn muchyy. huuu :(. nak nak kalau tengah dengar lagu eenie meenie by justin bieber because she had memorize this song and she will sing a long with me.

" aunty please hear me.aisyah nak nyanyi ,

eny, miny, moe,
Catch the baby by the toe.
If it hollers let him go,
Eeny, meeny, miny, moe, you are it


this is her nursery rhyme song,but when she heard justin bieber song she will jump and sing happily. together with her moving hands.ouh. how cute u are dear. :)

and today. this is the moment i'm waiting for almost every sem. aha. kawan kawan ado dak? takdo kan. sy je ad0o :p. aha. kids are my passion and everytime i see them bak kata org kedah ni. " aihh.ralit ngat eh tgk budak ni". haaa. that's me lar. khusyuk dan sangat mengasyikkan tau tgk gelagat kanak kanak ni. haihhlar.comelll!



aha. itu cikgu mana tatau. stinky kan my face. haihh =___='. hyper sngt bermain kot. aha. and besides me is a SD kids. she is cute. she is daring and funny t0o. sy sngt khusyuk melihat telatahny. comel sngt tau!.comellar. tatau nk describe. and she is a bit garang ouw.. tapi tape. berani lawan cikgu? cikgu cubet awak nt ;p



we are teachers :)

ouh. ya. tepat dan benar. my zygomatc is s0oo chubby apparently :D. kids are not lying yah. ouh. malu =___='.

anak abah dan mama rindu sangat kat mama dan abah :/

assalamualaikum. here i am tonite?.. eh nope. bukan tonite. but suda morning.perut berkeroncong lagu yang menarik. angin da masuk perut. huhu tapi takut nak begerak kerana keseorangan di rumah. :/. sadis. rasa nak nangis sekarang. huhu

i tried to sleep. but i can't. mungkin kerana perut saket kot. so rasa rindu kt rumah semakin membuak buak. kalau mama atau abah tahu anakny sedang lapar. mest abah ajak pegi makan kat luar.huhu :/

i'm laying on bed, rolling and turning around. back and forth. back and forth on my bed. so i decided to switch on my lappy and there's so many things puzzling in my head and i just need to type it out.

i miss my dad as my dear reminds me of him. ouh. abah busy sangat kan skrg and da jarang c0l. but mama replaced him. mama yang akan col eventhough abah's name appear at my phone but when i pick it up, there's ma's voice..huhuhu. sadly. saya sangat sangat rindukan abah. patut rasa mcm tak kena je sekarag ni. rasa tak semangat. i dunn0 what to do0, i'm bored and again. my tears drop. huhu. i hate this feelings =_____=.

when i was little, i were totally enjoyed with abah. abah sangat tidak garang. and sangat sangat c0ol. till now i guess. i miss to kiss his cheek. and i miss to b in his arm. abah selalu kepit kepala saya bawah ketiak abah. and sy akan menjerit jerit ckp abah busuk. huu. i miss that moment =____='

secretly some times at night, i used to pretend to fall asleep in front of TV because abah will carry me up to my bed.aha.and i remember those times abah come to my r0om and babbling at me why i dislike to use "ubat nyamuk". and i will reply him " sha nak charge hpn la abah. tak payah pasang ubat nyamuk". but abah will ignore me and he will plug in suis ubat nyamuk itu sendiri. no wonder da 3kali i'v denggi fever. anak yang degil rupanya. hihi.

and mama. sha sangat sangat rindukan mama jugak. huu. even my mama was a bit strict then abah, but i love her so much. even kadang2 sy suka merajuk dgn mama, tp sy sendiri yang akan pujuk mama balik. huhu because i can't stand alone without mama. :/ and i remember, one day i was sulking with mama and i drove car with tears heavily drops, and i refused to pick up mama's calls but after two days, i can't stand it anymore. huhuhu. i answered mama's call and mama's voice seems like she was so sad missing me here. and she was so excited t0oo to hear my voice. huuu. mama. sha minta ampun ye :/

dear mama and abah. i just want you to know i love both of you so much no matter what.

sadly me
=__________=

inspired by him ♥ superhero ♥

be nice to people who deserve it oke? to those people who always take advantage of your weakness don't deserve to get your attention. Just ignore the dust oke? :)

tengkayu soomuchh pakcek yang encem! ;)

food is a good therapy for me

hari hari saya asyik dan kerap betul menternak lemak. hoh0o. da gain weight till 55 and buley jadik ++++ lagik. wahaa. malas nak pikiaq lar. BMI maintain. .ouihh. kang da xmaintain baru sibok2 nak diet kan. oke. stat mlm ni dietlar :/. wuwuwu. aha

sy memang takut kurus ni.so kena la mkn bnyk2 kan. :p. ayat biase penyedap hati. aha. btw, i'm still oke. rahasia kekal maintain?. alhamdulillah. dianugarahkan perut yang cepat menghadam. dan amaran selalu diberi kepada housemate tercinta. " ehhh. toilett fasha puny sekarang. jgn kacau! ". aha. paham2 la oke?. kalo tak paham sila pm me. nanti sy jelaskn maksudnya. haha. *senget* // ;p



gambar camwhoring bersama makanan wajib ado tau. ini adalah mcD di alor setarr. ;p. nyummy. suda berjanji temu lama da dgn encik McD. tetapi apakan daya harini baru bekesempatan menunaikan janji temu ini. aha :p, menu wajib sayo adalah bubur ayam oh bbur ayam mcD ;p.

makanan adalah therapy terbaik utk sy.! ala.korg pun samakan.ecece.malu nk ngaku yek ;p

bak kata mama " ala makan je la.selagi rasa nk makan, kang xlalu makan nanti semua org susah hati". oke ma. i keep ur words. sukenyaaa.ahak!

bak kaa lecturer " as u are s0o called as students, no need to diet but make sure u get a balance diet. because everday you need food to produce ur energy. u are sweating? then it means that you had lose your energy. so0o just eat happily! :).

makan.peluh.makan.peluh.so0o keep continue eating ur meals! ;)

dan sy memang suka amatlarhh.sebab mereka pun sangat sangat sukaaa makann!.yeayyy :D







peneman setia sy :) :) :)

okela.babai.sila jeles.sila jeles! aha :p

homesickness

assalamualaikum
and i wish you 0olss a very good day :)

may i say today is still a s0o0 malashh day untuk saya. haha. hari hari malaskan anak abah ni.esaimen beratur je tunggu nak disiapkan. esaimen esaimen sekalian sila tekan butt0n " nombor giliran " oke. =____='. kalau tidak saya akn telepas pandang. OmG!!. alasan hebat sngt kan?. haha

orang semua da packing brg utk pulang ke kampung halaman. and me?. huuu. a bit menyesal kerana memilih tempat utk melaksanakan SBE di kedah. btw it's still oke. carik pengalaman. dengar anak murid ckp loghat kedah belaka. haaa. nt cikgu pooning tau. ahaha :p but for me, it's really amaze when i can see them speak out with their own dialect. kalau di perak nak nak di kuala kngsar bandar di raja ala ala konon2 nye itu. haha. ape sy merepek ni? :p, murid murid di sana mostly ckp bhsa standard. bak kate lecturer sy yang kadang2 agak memerli itu. " saye asal dari kuale kangsar", and they will imitate my style. haiyarrhhh. takkan nak ckp bhsa kedah kot. cheq tak hebat mana no0o. kang cakap2 duk tegelak sendiri cmna nak wat ?. haha . oke. stop.

perasan tak.every year. sepanjang blog ini ditubuhkan.haha mest wajib ada entri homesick kan. rumah oh rumah. nape selalu sakit ni ha? :p


aha. boley tak cmni. can i say this to my lect. haha. haha.haha tgh bayangkan niii. :P. kang tak memasal je kene perli kaw kaw. takpun kena jelingan tajam sesiapa ke. kau jeles nape ea? :P

hai.hai.walla.
tibe2 rase nak bepantun
kalau merepek tak kisahla
janji dpt hilang stress bertambun :p

mama oh abah
daughter you demam panashh
demam yang tak kebah
because i miss u 0ll damn much.

mama oh sayangku
i rindu masakan mama yg sedap top top
nanti i balik mama masak utkku
i makan bnyk sampai u say st0p. :p

abah oh ensem amat
i balik nt nak paw u
sebab i jeles abah manjekan peanut
i pilih abah bayar then i say i love you!!

eh.eh pelikkan sha ni
sebab tibe2 jadik xbetul
penangan sbb rindu da berguni guni
nak balik ohhhh rindu betulllll!.haihh lar =_='

ouh. sha. sedar diri sha :p. kang org tak pecaye awk ni future teacher to b. hakhak. ado sy kesah? tado kan. janji sy tahu sy adlh seorg cikgu yg sangat garang! :P.

grrrrrrr. rawrrrr :p

oke.sambung cerita. sadis betul weekend ini tinggal sensorg di rumah. housemate semua balik. jemputla dtg rumah beramai2. haha. mati sy cmni kan? ;p. niat nak ke perlis. tapi niat juga nk stay di umah. nak rehat la kot because next week da kene ke sekolah.prepare mental la yek cikgu. hee. seronok betul rasa kalau ckp sal bebudak ni.haihh.goramm! :D

oke cerita lagi. hari ini saya ke tesco. haha. haha. sy kejar seorang kanak kanak yg pd sy buley dipngl bby lagik lar kot. kecik je tau. bontot di pakai pampers lagik. jln tekedek2. haihh. geram je. berlari lari plak bby ni. laju plak tu. mest bru dpt kaki. comel je lar die lari. nak nak tang bontot bby tu.cumelll owhh sebab pakai pampers. hakhak ;p mak die or sy rasa opahla kot.sebab da tua da. opah dia xlarat nk kejar die, sy pun kejar la kejar kejar dan dapat. haha. gerammmm gileee nye lar.haihh. sabar.sabar. rasa nak colikkk bawk balik. tp takut tak pepasal esok pg polis keliling umah. aha.

pastu tengah beratur nk bayar brg2 yg dibeli sempat bermain aumcakk dgn bby ni yg laen. sekali dia suke sngt sampai nampak gg dua batang dan sy pun jadik geram lagik sekali.gile2 puny geram..haha. tp cover lar.control2. sebab ayah die ada. nt ayah die perasan ingt nk ngorat die. aha. taklar pakcek. sy tepikat ngn anak pakcek je :p. ehh.pakcek kau pgl? anak i br sorang. bby plak tu. muda lg tau. (0______o). hoho. dialog rekaan oleh sha. ;p

biasela kawan kawan. entri ini adalah utk menghiburkan hati yg lara. :P, da habis bace pun kan.terima kasihlah! :p.

oh hello!. sy cikgu fasha. sy akan kasik kamu aiskrem kalau kamu puji cikgu comel.cepat pujiiii! :p.


haha. ini adalah contoh cikgu yg baik oke.
sila jadikan tauladan ^_______^

okela. sy nak mandi.
da lewat malam da. xbaik mandi tau.
tapi perlu mandi :D

buley tak kalo sy ckp sy senget sebentar? ;p

yg tulus ikhlas
sha senget :D//

this is so tiring

i don't know what is it. sekejap i feel go0d. but later, i feel down. biasala tu kan. whenever we think of our weaknesses, automatically akan rasa " haishhh. burukny diri ni". " haishhh. kenapala aku tak cantik ". " haihh.kenapala macam selalu menyusahkan org". " haihh.kenapala mcm2 tak reti nak buat". and seriously, i'm sick of it.

it's the same old thing keep repeating over and over itself. so i think. keep on thinking that no matter how much chances i give myself to change, i still unable to change to b better. i'm unable to improve myself. sy berfikir. being an 'adult' you'd outgrow this kind of feeling and emotion, something what teenagers would feel, all the hormones raging, and just starting to have a taste of life. I really don't know what it is, what's wrong with me. I can't even do the simplest of tasks. even nak defend diri sndiri pun dah xreti ke sha oiii!. haihh larr.:/

until when nak biar orang asyik mengata. pastu nanges. pastu rasa oke. mcm tu je?.until when nak biar org pandang u sebagai someone yang tak reti defend diri?.

i really don't understand what's wrong with me. mama and abah never though me to b rude. but i misunderstand it. never though to b rude doesn't mean to let anyone keep bullying me. i always thought when i try to defend myself, it seems to b rude way. so i chose to keep on silently and crying inside. let it heal me slowly. but actually it is d bad way. my heart hurt inside. macam terngiang2 shj my friends word " sukala nk kacau2 sha ni. nak kata2 sha ni. sha tak pernah nak marah ke. nak balas ke ". haihhh. but inside me i feel down. saket saya tak nmpk kt muka kan. tp kt dalam saket sngt2.

this is really affecting my life. i want to b a good daughter. a good friend. a good student and a good girl to my man and a good somebody. I keep on saying I want to change, I try, but I have trouble being consistent, when I'm on the right track, sekejap je tergelincir balik. back to my same old bad attitude. This is so tiring. :/

rasa mcm da give up. tanak pergi jumpa sesiapa pun.
nak jadi macamm sha yang dulu. yang taktahu apa tu dunia luar. yang sentiase bekepit ngn mama abah. my world is only my family. huhu
sedey mcm ni :/

i just don't know what to do with myself.

watch ur words.