~ the old me ~

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder (wonder) of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in Allah
Something good in everything I see
I believe in Allah
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

♥♥♥ ~ my great mama always sing this song together with me and my sisters during our journey. everywhere in abah's car :) ~ ♥♥♥


and mama also paste this lyrics in our room's wall. and everywhere in our lovey dovey house. ♥ so that we are inspire to achieve our dream. :) i love you mama!

mama told us to be a good girl. a good slave to Allah. a good daughter.and sooner a good wife. but sometimes, i'm failed!. i just dunno why. but as long as i'm called human, there's lot of weakness.

i miss the old me. where i'm supposed to be so naive. like i don't know anything.~ (tp mmg pun)~. i'm willing to be hurt rather than hurting someone. perasaan dilukai lebih baik dari melukai. where i can heal myself by my own even i need to take a years. and i just dunno how to heal someone if i hurt them. it was so embarrassing. and i'll keep on reminding myself that i'm just stupid one and i'm a loser. am i?.

it hurts when my tears drop because of my fault and my sin.
rather than, my tears drop because i was hurting.
different.totally different!

" Ya Allah..
dgn keberkatan bulan ini..
aku mohon padaMu diberi kekuatan
utk menempuh hari hari mendatang.
kurniakan apa saja yang terbaik dariMu buat
insan insan yang aku sayangi
baik bagiMu.baik jualah bagiku."

amin Ya Rabbal al'amin.